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| So, It's '08. AND ONE MORE FUCKIN' YEAR TIL I SAY GOODBYE TO SHITTY WHS! Yep. God, Im so glad. This year has been great! People, teachers [except for one], and JROTC. Fuckin' great. Drama? Like always, But I don't care. It's not between me. So fuck it, right? My spain kid left back to spain. I fucking hated it. I really, really did. Im still heart broken. I just.. omg, I don't know. It really hit me. He is/was probably the only guy that made me feel like no other. Now, I see all these guys, and none of them made me feel special, like him. I miss him soooo sooo soo much. He supposedly said that he was coming back, but who knows. With every passing day, there's never a day where I don't think of him. He's mine. Wherever he is or goes. He will always be mine. and maybe, im his. :O Dude, Im shitting bricks over this fuckin' ACT shit! im scurred. :D So, I thought I had it all planned out, ya know, about college and stuff. You see, I wanted to: Go to CLC for 2 yrs, then, Transfer on over to the art institute. and study, SPECIAL EFFECTS MAKEUP ARTIST. But, My brother, yes my brother, made me open my eyes about that. As much as I loooooove horror, and gore. There's no way in hell im gonna get into that motherf*cking buisness. So, now, im career-less. =/ Ah, Oh well. I'll figure it out. Yeah, this is the second snow day. and im a little bored. I KINDA miss school. Sheesh, hopefully I wont have to do P.T. tomorrow in ROTC. I will be pissed. Um, Yeah. Oh yeah. I've been going to the gym :D It's been good, and I've also been eating healthy. No pop, I try no candy, Nor greasy, greasy foods. Yep. ok, im done. 
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| Blah. Okay, today.. Nothing new. I had a little get together, and half of the people that said that they wanted to go, they didn't. It's all good though, I had fun even though Stephanie didn't make it. She was forced to go to the mall wil her parents and watch her sister her shoes...Keep in mind..HER SISTER. Ugh, w/e. So, Im kinda ticked, I don't why I should be. I have no reason to what so ever. You know, when you message someone on myspace that gives you that feeling that you have something going on, or a new person that you added and shit, and you wanna keep talking to them because they're so fuckin' intresting, and people like them don't exist in your little world, and the day that the person doesn't message back.. you feel.. Weird.. Like.. You did something wrong. Or like, they don't wanna talk to you, because you said something that you shouldn't have. But, You revise that message over, and over, yet, You don't find NOTHING wrong with it. Then, You start making up all these fuckin' conclusions. About, myspace not working, their messaging system is retarded, His hand hurts, or I don't know. Some retarded ass conclusions. Agh, I feel so fuckin' retarded! Blah. It's whatever. So, My dog just bit me. Again. Stupid little bitch. Turns out, I might be even going to mexico. My passport code hasn't come in yet, and my mom is worried as hell. I am too.. I wanna go. I need a vacation, After all this shit I wanna go somewhere and just think shit thru. Im not ready to enter my junior yr, and expect what's expected of me. This school year is going to be weird as hell. i might be wrong. Who knows..Ah, Blah.Blah, FUCKIN' BLAH. Agh, Fuckin' tired of this. I wanna, scream, I wanna Run, I wanna cuss, I wanna kick, I wanna fuckin' kill someone. And, I bet you, someone will read this and ask what's wrong. And when I post my happy shit, no ones there to even fuckin' congratulate me. Yay for fuckin' friends. There's no problem. I just need to fuckin' vent. I can fix it myself. Blah. Im leaving. | | |
| Ahh... So, Here we go with the update. Yeah... Im still breathing? Gah. I don't know. Um... So, it's 1:34 in the morning and I can't sleep. Even though, I am pretty tired. I went to six flags with stephanie, David, and stephanie's sister. It was pretty cool, I guess. Rode all the rides that I was planning to. Except..Raging bull, But, who cares. I'm mad. I don't get to see wednesday 13 tomorrow. It's okay. I can always go some other day/year/month. Blah. I'm glad summer's here. I barely survived school. I guess only because..Well, There's a challenge. *shrugs* ah.. just 2 more yrs. Then, I'll be free! woohoo! But it is going to be a very sad day. I won't see the people that i'll always see. Ah, Gotta move on. Life goes on. It never stops, not even when you wished it did. I'm leaving to mexico on thrusday. My plane flight leaves at 10:00 pm. hah. Yeah. I kinda can't wait. I don't know. Im gonna tanned as hell. Up to the point where I look black. lmao...Im serious. -.- I'll be back though. in a month or so. Agh. Blah. Um.. Im sure there's a lot I could be talking about..But sue me.. It's late at night at the only thing I wanna do is get some shut eye. But, I can't. I should read.. That makes me sleepy...Sometimes. Or talk to myself..lmao. God, Im dumb. The spain kid is leaving to spain on monday. ='/ But only for like.. 2 months. lmao sucker. He hates it here, but I told him that if he doesn't come back im gonna go to spain myself, and shove my foot so far up his ass it'll stretch all the back to here. bahaha. Im mean, But hey.. You gotta get your entertainment from anywhere he/she goes. "can we take a ride? Get out of this place, while we still have time" -Jimmy Eat World Man, I was thinking of what went wrong with me and some chick...Sheesh. I gotta understand that I wasn't meant for everyone. I'm gonna have people that hate me and love me. And, She's one of those that hates me. haha. Stupid bitch. Her ego wont be so high when I punch her in the face, knock her ass down all the down to fuckin' reality. BUAHAHAHHAHAHAHA... I'm not that mean. -.- Six flags? yes... c'mon..You know you wanna.. =] Blah, blah. blah. God, I hate this. ok, im tired. Night. | | |
| So, How's everyone doing? I just want to thank everyone that comment my xanga post from last time. It was a good topic for me, well, because I just needed to vent on some stuff. But.... Now that, that's over. This... 2007...year thing, has.. like.. been weird. Juan gave me a signature from Cradle of filth. BAHAHHA I feel loved. =] <3 And my dog is licking my feet.. eww >.O Blah, this font is pissing me off! Gah! Oh well. haha. Well, I need to go to the gym and workout, but no one wants to go with me!!! *cries* I need to lose..this this.. thing..called fat XD So, then I can look like.. o.O erm.. skinny? I was going to say a celebrety but..I don't know who I should pick. lmao I went to the mall on saturday, and I bought my military ball dress thing in under 20 bucks!! it was cool XD I have polka dot shoes O_O They're like HUUUGE on me. bahhaa But for nine bucks cheap! XD Then I went bowling with larf <3 XD It was fun as hell. XD Well, I've run out of shit to say.. I think.. .. .... .... Yeah I did. bahha. later. XD
God damn.. *licks* XD 
=] 
I knew it. -.- 
RAWR >.O Take your breath
I rob you of your life
Oh how I love to see you cry
I'm your nightmare in shinning armor
Bringing horror
Your screams can't penetrate my insecurities
My heart stopped beating
When you first said that you loved me
And now I hold you close to me
But I still don't feel a thing
You're so cold and blue
And now I must forget you
Some things are worth dying for
And baby that ain't me
I'm sorry that you couldn't escape
This curse of me
Tonight I hold you one more time
With the stench of formaldehyde
You're my darkest secret
And in my crawl space is where I'll keep it
Your hopes and dreams
Won't ever see the light of day
I took your beauty, your purity
And locked it all away
And now I hold you close to me
But I still don't feel a thing
You're so cold and blue
And now I must forget you
Some things are worth dying for
And baby that ain't me
I'm sorry that you couldn't escape
This curse of me
This curse of me
This curse
This curse of me 
Goddamn frenchies!!! XD
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| Hokay. A lot has happened. Well, im in school. Adam and I? Yeah............ I don't know. XD Anyways. I don't know what to say.. How was your guy's Jesus day?? huh? Well, I just wanna talk about a few topics. Like.. Anorexia. It hurts to see people that are anorexic. Sure, I have friends that LOOK like they are..But they're not. I've seen them eat before O_O It's not a pretty site. XD Now, I haven't done much research on it. But, I just wanna talk about it. Like for me, I feel like I could never get a guy because of my weight. I feel like.. im too ugly.. Or something. God. Now, I don't want to hear it.. saying: YOU'RE NOT UGLY! OR FAT! Please..You don't know what are under these clothes. You don't know. And Im gonna get something saying by: Then if you don't like the way you look, then do something about it. Truth is: I AM! jesus..>_>' Well, anyways.. Back to the topic. I look around myspace, VF, and other sites and I see all these pretty pretty doll faced girls, and Im just thinking in my mind:Like wow, She's beautiful. Now, Im not saying that ALL overweight people are ugly, Just look at karla. She's beautiful! I mean..beautiful! I wish I was that beautiful. I really do. Well, My point was that I would never be anorexic, or bullemic. Only because I dont want to be THAT skinny, and go thru all that pain.It hurts to be that skinny, It really does. Not only mentally, but physically too. I say the guys that are only into skinny skinny girls are stupid. not that im saying that skinny girls don't deserve men like them, But im saying... That shey shouldn't be so.. soo... so..Steriotypical? Like, I know I shouldnt be self fish and say: Oh im so god damn fat, because I know they are women and men that are heavier than me. But still. Im human, so shoot me. I can only be what my body or brain tells me. And if people judge by physical appearence, then, I wouldn't blame you... We're human, we all judge, We're all hypocrites, we all have our racists moments, we're everything that humans should be. Why should I Be the different one, and not be..say.. steriotypical. Which of course im not, But in my mind, I am. Only because It's HUMAN. I have to live with it. Oi! Im not depressed either about this. So im not emo or nothing like that. Im actually thirsty.... Water? Yes mam! XD So, Yeah like yeah.. Any opinions?!? yeah.. Back to my life. I need dinero. The end. XD 
LMFAO Love that fucking squirell! 
LMFAOROFL 
^_^ <3 
Kewl. 
Six flags XD Welp. That's it. =] <3 | | |
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